COVID P1

 As I sit and realize that the 'old' life that so drastically vanished from the grasps of my fingertips come back and slowly becomes my old new reality.

THE REFLECION

Me reflecting on my life has never really been a thing you know...I just kind of went with the flow of things and everything moved as smooth as a river on a humid summers day but eventually the inevitable was bound to happen. My river was going to stop, the abundant flow it once had was going to run dry

It wasn't a slow and steady halt it came like a bloodthirsty hungry lion ready to devour what all I had left.

Covid 19 changed a lot for me as a teenager and I'm here to kind of voice out those tough experiences I had to face as a 12-year-old in that time...now of course that I'm 15 I do understand how out of context they were

INSECURITIES

There's just something about a mask that took away all of my so-called problems ... having faced acne from a very young age I didn't quite like the way I had looked and within my Favour the mask saved me all that stress and hustle 

Simply because it covered my 'insecurities' and I wasn't going to get bullied because everyone had to wear one. It was a win, win situation plus the black mask went with all my outfits

I'm not really sure if its only me but weight also became a prominent issue, where I felt extremely insecure about the way my body was developing and growing... let's not even talk about the constant overeating because of boredom that played a huge role in that insecurity. I found myself leaning more towards the oversized 'Bruh girl' aesthetic 

Growing up during that time wasn't as tasteful as id have liked it to be I became very ani social and wasn't good with communicating with people as I once did .my self-esteem defiantly went down, and I became very self-conscious of my surroundings.

It took a huge toll on my mental health. there're many negatives that come with that whole pandemic story, but we shouldn't forget the positives.

Come join me as I uncover more about Covid from my view.